Loss As A Writer

If you’ll recall, back in July, I shared the terrible story of my computer crashing. After the computer crashed, the files I had of my works of writing had been gone. Years and years of work, countless ideas and notes, and at least 4 stories begun (and nearly finished) were all gone.

I mentioned in that post that I had a flash drive where I had previously saved my work. At the time, I was too nervous to even look. It was devastating enough losing it all. But to bite the bullet and look at just how much I had lost and come to terms with the finality of it was just too much for me.

So, I avoided it.

I knew without a doubt that I had the files on there from 2012. That was when I got a new laptop and transferred all the files from my old one to my new one. But, I couldn’t be sure if I had used the flash drive again. I just couldn’t remember.

Well… yesterday, I finally looked.

The last time I had saved new information was in December of 2012. That meant that 5 years of what I had worked on was officially gone.

Surprisingly, I didn’t cry. Even as I’m writing this, I’m not crying. But oh, believe me, I’m crushed by this.

In 2013, I worked on my novels a lot. There was a big period of time where I would dedicate one of my days off per week to going to a local coffee shop and working on my stories.

Between 2015-now though, I hadn’t done too much with them. I just simply didn’t have the time.

Still, there is so much work that was lost. I’ve definitely learned my lesson in terms of backing up your files!!

Instead of letting this tear me apart, I’m choosing to be optimistic. All the ideas and words were my own. Everything came from my own mind. So, they’re not completely lost. I still have the basis of my ideas. It’s just a matter of kind of starting over.

In all honesty, I’ve been a bit of a perfectionist anyway with my writing. For example, there’s one series I’ve been working on since 2008 (yes, you read that right) that I’ve only gotten through the first book. I’ve finished it and gone back through it making changes probably about 5 times (at least). Now, I just get to start it over!

Now that I’ve come face-to-face with what I’ve lost, I’m able to make a plan to get my butt in gear with writing my novels. I’m learning from my mistakes and my experiences and now they will turn out better than ever!

Wish me luck!

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